I grew up in a very abusive home where my mother who was just evil portrayed herself as being a super christian woman (I could write volumes about it but recently my sister took her life because she never recovered from the abuse). I have had chronic fatigue syndrome, chronic pelvic pain syndrome, and bi-polar syndrome. I grew up confused to no end about religion due to my experiences. Several years ago I got involved with a few different sects of evangelical christians having been convinced that these people were really loving and that they really knew about God and all that. I fell for it all the way becoming one of them but I constantly found myself being personaly attacked and ostrasized for my illnesses. I explained myself as best as I could and to the extent that I was making myself sicker I tried to meet all their expectations but it was no use. I have tried several churches but now I can't go to any because every time I've tried I end up being ridiculed by someone. Now I can't help but wonder if these are the only people 'not' going to hell then what is going on. People really suck and these christians have shown themselves over and over to be no different in spite of their claims. I guess I am bitter about it but who wouldn't be.
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