So I woke up manic again this morning. I have all of this mental energy and am trying to drink some caffeine to get the physical energy. I have so much to do around the house yet can't seem to focus on one task. My mind is racing so bad i can't make it stop. I have to clean the bathroom, clean my bedroom, clean the living room, take a shower. All while trying to find affordable health insurance, which sucks by the way. I can't seem to get focused on one taks and am completely overwhelemed with where to start. I know if I start in one place, I will get distracted and start in another place not finishing the first task. I just want to go out and spend lots and lots of money but I have no money so tht is a good thing. The only thing I can do with myself right now is sit on the porch, drink iced tea, smoke cigs and play oin the computer. The only thing that would help me right now is if "I got myself a bottle of vodka and started drinking. Then maybe the mania would calm down a little bit. Oh I hate feeling like this.
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