Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
i'm so low today, the house is a tip, i havent the strength to clean up, the kids are bored, the dog is bored and being destructive, the washing needs doing, the washing up is piled high,m the floors are filthy, my hoover has packed up, i havent even managed to put a clean sheet on my bed, i feel like a failure. i'm a single mum and i do have a partner but he doesnt live with me and has left to see his mum which he does every sunday, besides i dont like to bother him with this every five mkinutes.
i'm fighting my abusive ex for residence of my kids (he wants custody and i want them with me, he is using the MH stuff as reasons for me being an unfit parent) so i cant afford to be ill. i would dearly love a spell in hospital just for respite and to get my meds sorted out (on seroxat and lithium but seems not to be working) but i cant, cos my ex would have a field day if he found out and also i have nobody to care for the kids if i am not here.
i feel totally alone and really despairing, i just want to sleep and sleep, i cant cope with this all the time, my mood swings are so rapid they change from one hour to the next or one day to the next and i never knwo how i will feel when i wake up. littlest thigns set me off - partner going out today (which he does every sunday, its no big thing) has triggered off this latest low.
yet on my good days i feel like a fraud and i cant get my head round the bp dx because i dont get manic - hypomanic i suppose, but i dont really notice it, i think i am being 'me' and totally normal until people point it out. the depression is the predominant mood swing and i am just so unhappy. i've put on stones from the meds, i dont bother with my appearance any more (unheard of for me) and i just dont feel like me anymore, the woman i used to be has gone and ben replaced with a fat dysfunctional waste of skin.
sorry its long, have a shiny if you got to the end, and thanks for letting me rant.
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i'm fighting my abusive ex for residence of my kids (he wants custody and i want them with me, he is using the MH stuff as reasons for me being an unfit parent) so i cant afford to be ill. i would dearly love a spell in hospital just for respite and to get my meds sorted out (on seroxat and lithium but seems not to be working) but i cant, cos my ex would have a field day if he found out and also i have nobody to care for the kids if i am not here.
i feel totally alone and really despairing, i just want to sleep and sleep, i cant cope with this all the time, my mood swings are so rapid they change from one hour to the next or one day to the next and i never knwo how i will feel when i wake up. littlest thigns set me off - partner going out today (which he does every sunday, its no big thing) has triggered off this latest low.
yet on my good days i feel like a fraud and i cant get my head round the bp dx because i dont get manic - hypomanic i suppose, but i dont really notice it, i think i am being 'me' and totally normal until people point it out. the depression is the predominant mood swing and i am just so unhappy. i've put on stones from the meds, i dont bother with my appearance any more (unheard of for me) and i just dont feel like me anymore, the woman i used to be has gone and ben replaced with a fat dysfunctional waste of skin.
sorry its long, have a shiny if you got to the end, and thanks for letting me rant.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
Take the kids and dog out of the equation, and you've described me to a T!!!
Well, I have my 25 year old, autistic son with me half the time, so I guess you can add that back into the equation.
Isn't it absolutely horrible!!!? I let other things slide as well. I bring the mail in and toss it down and then it's as though it doesn't exist. I finally go to deal with it, thinking that it's about a week old, only to find that it's a MONTH old!!!
And if you're like me, another thing that makes it all so hard is that when the stuff piles up to that degree, it becomes even more depressing and daunting. So much needs doing that it becomes totally overwhelming!!! I don't know where to start or what to do and even when I try, my feeble attempts barely get me anywhere!!! It seems that each mess can't be done until another mess is done first and there just isn't any good starting point.
I'm on Lamictal and Seroquel and Klonopin and while it doesn't keep me from being like this, I'm worse off without it.
I actually HAVE been better for about a week now and was actually able to get some stuff done. I think I did more in one day than I had done in the whole month previous (and that still ain't saying much!) I don't know why my mood changed, but I'm hoping that it will last a while. I hope the same thing happens for you. I DO know how you feel!!!
Take care!!! If I can think of any helpful, practical help, I'll let you know. Right now, all I can offer is my empathy!!!!
You will get through this...give yourself sometime and some credit. You got out of an abusie relationship, your a single mum...Your doing great just feeling down at the moment...
junggl that was really helpful, i KNOW im doing well all things considered, i just sometimes need someone to tell me its ok to just STOP if i feel like this. ok, so the kids wont go without, but nowt else will get done. i HATE this so much - i used to be SOOOOO capable, organised, efficient - i was a profssional PA ffs. now i cant even make a phone call without struggling. and feel so GUILTY about it too. then i feel that te kids dad is right, that i am a crap parent and not well enough to care for them. on good days i know thats a crock but on bad days it feels true. its so hard to explain how i feel in words on a screen.