So my husband and I got into a huge argument last night. He says I use my mania as an excuse. That I treat him like S*** when I'm manic and then later when I recover I'm like oh sorry I was manic and I expect him to just get over it. See the thing is I go into these manic rages that last for hours. I yell and scream and I get delusional and start thinking he's harmed me in some way. He tends to make it worse when I'm like that by yelling back. I've even become violent with him before. I know its not fair. I feel horrible every time this happens but what makes me feel even worse is that he thinks I can control it that I'm just not trying hard enough. Is that true? Am I just weak willed? Can you control yourself when your manic?
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