Maybe I am just getting old. I am not sure why, but I just can't do the things I used to be able to do. I used to be able to waterski. Really well. I just can't seem to do it anymore, and I am so pissed that I am missing out on the fun. I never had a problem with it before. I know that I have been clumsy since the lithium, but this is rediculous. I put the car into drive and - oops - I go backwards. The guy in inspection tells me to hit the brake - woops - hit the gas. Good thing I was on one of those things that spins the wheels and you go nowhere. I learned how to fly. It is all there in my head, I can tell you anything about how to do it, but holy cow, I won't even try that one with the luck I have been having. I can't type fast anymore. I can't even talk right half the time. I struggle to get words out of my mouth. I sound like a retard. My boyfriend says I sound like I have wet brain. I walked quickly out the open door the other day - bam - the sreen door was there, I ripped it out at the bottom. What the h** is going on here?
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