yeah definitely have rapid cycling bipolar disorder. there is NO other explanation for it. i just want to control it. earlier today i was spinning out of control. thoughts and body racing/shaking....everything was hazy to me. then all of a sudden in class....like snapping of someone's fingers...bam! i'm stable. doesn't make any sense at ALL! i think what i'm feeling right now might not be stable so much as it is mania. just because i'm semi-giddy. which again doesn't make much sense....but i suppose anything is better than being in a mixed state or depressed.
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