I feel like I'm losing my mind. I keep thinking about the things I was seeing when I was off my meds. If I look up to the sky, I can still see them - the angels, the demons, battling it out for our precious souls. And if I listen closely, I can still hear the demon that talked to me all the time before meds. I can still see the mercy tree in my mind's eye. I want to run to it. I want to pluck the leaves off one by one and find mercy for my sinful soul. I don't know what's going on. I don't know if these are just realistic memories or if it's breakthrough psychosis. I shouldn't have either, I'm on enough Haldol to kill a horse yet still, they remain. I don't know what to do. Any advice? Thanks in advance.
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