Had my eval today with the new psych group. Im frustrated beyond frustrated right now. Why is it I keep hearing the words Bipolar is an awful heavy diagnosis. Or I dont know those halluciations and voices your having sound more like flash backs to me when in reality they are nothing like experincing a truamtic event again. Yes I was abused....many times, but I dont relive them. When the voices are telling me to pick up chairs and throw them at my husband how is that a flash back? I dont understand where they are getting this from. I go up and down like a freaking roller coaster. When im up ( manic ) im pure evil. I get irritibale, then angry, and finish off with rage. Add in some voices and "visions", and lack of sleep thats my mania. When im depressed im really depressed and think of suicide none stop for no other reason then just ending the pain I feel. I dont understand where they are getting this stuff from. Is it because PTSD seems like it is easier to treat? Or does the mental health field still not really know anything about bipolar disorder?
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