When I'm manic I'm about as social as you can get. You know, the life of the party. But this doesn't happen much. The rest of the time I have an EXTREMELY difficult time being around people. As I have put to my hubby "I just hate people." I always feel I'm being judged, laughed at, or being put down. I know, people have more important things to do! But it keeps me from going out in public. I can't go to family functions, church, any type of large gathering. I also can't develop relationships. I have one friend and that's only because she loves me enough to put up with me. I lost my job in 2002 inpart due to this. Now I'm afraid to try to go back to work. Am I the only one?
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