My wife is worn out from my BP. The last year, several manic states and 3 hospital stents. I am doing better and I see things in terms of a good days weeks or months. My wife looks at things in terms of good years and there have not been to many as far as BP and my behavior. I was not diagnosed with it until about 2 years ago so prior to that it was just running its crazy course. I think my wife needs a few stable years to get back to were she was in our marriage and I frankly am scared that it may not happen. It is a daunting task that depends on meds therapy and my cylces. Much of which I cannot control. I am relying on God which is a good thing to help me get through it, but I am fearful of slipping up or having a breakdown. Even those closest to us have such a hard time understanding this can be a day in day out struggle to try and maintain this state or normalcy. They do not understand how we might question our diagnosis or meds or miss the manic energy. Anyways just rambling. Anyone else dealing with something similar.
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