I posted something similar on the Alcoholic community but the two problems are so intertwined that I'd like to post here also and get some beepers outlook. I have only worked about 2 days in the last two weeks and I'm taking off the next week as well due to depression. I quit drinking and xanax 20 days ago. I've been doing everything I can think of to get well (no alcohol, no xanax, exercise, eating decent, vitamins, sleeping well, daily AA meetings, etc.) and still I feel horrible. If this is what sobriety is like then I'm not sure I want any part of it. I know, I know, give the new a/d some time to work. I've only been on it for three days. What if it doesn't work? What if my DH finally gets fed up with my moods and leaves me? What if I can't go back to work? Drowning myself in alcohol sounds like a pretty good option at the moment. Xanax would work also but I don't have any of that at the moment. I'm trying so hard but I feel so bad and DH doesn't seem to give a rat's ass.
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