My dear DS friends. I am still relatively new here and need your help. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 w/mixed episodes. Every now and then I try and tell myself that maybe I am not Bipolar. Over the past couple weeks I have been wanting to ask my new psychiatrist to re-evaluate me. Can you please tell me what your opinion is of what transpired the last couple days? I was driving home from therapy when a song came on and reminded me of my deceased dog, which reminded me of my dogs my ex is not allowing me to see anymore, which caused me to cry. I then got home and spoke in my mini-tape recorder (my new way of journaling) and yelled at it as if it were my ex. I pounded the walls with my hands/fists and screamed. I was furious. Turned my phone on mute and didnt want to talk to anyone. Today work issues transpired (Ive been on a leave) and they said I have to come back Monday not Tuesday I flipped out! I was not mentally prepared to come back Monday. A monkey wrench was all it was and I dont do well (I have journal entry about them). I went to visit my mom and dad and I tried to tell my mom what occurred but my niece and brother/sister in law who are visiting from Taiwan were napping. I could get one line out. I knew I was going to scream so I said I had to leave. I ran outside, hit the bricks with my fist and drove off and planted my car at a cemetery and just cried my eyes out. I eventually got home. My emotions are completely out of control. I am irritated, adjitated, sad, feeling worthless and out of control. My question is, and I know it may be stupidis this bipolar? This is coming from the girl who keeps going into bouts of denial. Oris this normal?
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