Ever since DH returned from his business trip on Sunday he's been very quiet and hasn't hardly spoken to me. I finally called him after he left for work today and asked him if he was mad at me. He said no but what I'm going through is illogical. He feels like whatever he suggests (i.e. more exercise and positive thinking) is wrong and he doesn't know how to help me so he just doesn't say anything. Is diabetes illogical? How about high blood pressure? Why is a disorder of the brain so different from a disorder of some other body part. I guess I just wish I could get a little sympathy from him or at least an attempt to understand that I have a serious psychiatric disorder. I'm not just feeling sorry for myself and being lazy. BTW, he is going to my next pdoc and tdoc appointments. Maybe those will help. Maybe.
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i made this account because i hope this reaches someone who can understand. I feel immense shame and guilt over my past behavior while manic. I have ruined relationships with friends and family members, gotten tattoos that i dont want, done things that make me cringe. The weight of the self hatred gets to be too much sometimes. I feel like a burden. Nobody understands. I hate myself today.
Our great friend OlderC could really use some love and support right now... She's hit a rough patchBig squishy hug Kat... I hope that you start to feel better really soon.... xo