Well, if you read the subject then you know my diagnosis. I got this diagnosis 2 1/2 years ago. I'm not sure if it's correct. I haven't worked in a long time so I was going to a med clinic run by the state and I don't think they paid any attention to what I was saying and I couldn't even afford the sliding scale they used for therapy sessions. I do have mood swings, but they're mild, and I think could be contributed to my hormones and such. I'm not really sure where they got the agoraphobia thing, I read online that it's the fear of wide open spaces, but I live out in the country and love it outside. I told them I was scared to death and panicy when riding in a car and got to where I couldn't drive myself. I kept picturing aweful accidents happening to me, and getting trapped in the car or my hubby dying and just aweful stuff. I feel claustrophobic a lot. And the paranoia, I guess I sort of agree with, to an extent. Like, my hubby says I'm wrong but I think his whole family hates me and I think they're always giving me dirty looks and whispering about me and stuff. I quit taking my meds cuz I didn't feel I needed them, and I felt extremely overmedicated. Now, it seems like any time I have an opinion or my hubby or anybody else gets into an argument with (even ones I don't start) me, they all say stuff like "You need your meds" and it just doesn't seem fair. Not sure what to do about any of this.
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