being bipolar has it's ups and downs. ups you have crazy wild sex let the freak out. downs don't touch me, talk to me, look at me, breathe on me and so on. besides our meds is there any way to get through those days were you feel like some one or something else has taken over your body. when it seems like the people close to you expect you be normal, as if we ever are. the more you think about it of how you used be that person no longer exists. or maybe you can't even remember who you used to be. as if slowly inside you're dying emotionally. sometimes you smile it's really upside down or when you laugh it's empty. at times you have to put up a front just to fit in and not be a downer. slowly forgetting what having fun is. dragging your ass around for the family. or at times just wanting to drive far away for a road trip just because. those days that come out of no where when you don't know how you feel one minute happy, pissed off confused, lost, afraid, cry and the only thing you can think of is to fall asleep and never wake up. does anyone else have these battles?
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