I have no doubt I'd be dead w/out them....I don't know about bp2

What kind of meds are you on? I've been on quite a few meds that have made me feel that way. Get off of them.....try something else.

Hi Welcome to DS. My dx is BP1.

Sounds like Lithium may have been your drug of choice in the past?

You can't find info on BP2 ?

Lithium actually helped me...besides it making me gain weight I liked it.

Oh and you should be to find info on BP 2 by googling it.

There is info out there on the type 2 but not as much as the standard bp. I have been on many meds in the past. Lithium, tegretol, depakote,risperdol,ect. I just want a med that atleast makes me feel human and a med that makes me want to leave my home and do things that other people do. I dont feel like there is life on these meds. What meds have you felt have made the difference to you and your lives?

So far Lithium is the only med that helped me. Hopefully the others can help you out more!

Depakote and Seroquel are definitely two meds that have helped me A LOT. The Depakote is horrible for weight gain, which I HATE, but it's been a godsend as far as helping with mood stabilization, Seroquel too. They keep me leveled out, and if I run out of one or the other, I'm in big trouble, which recently happened.

I don't know what type of bipolar I have, I know that I have bipolar more with depression and not really mania. I think I just got diagnosed with bipolar because the depression meds weren't working for me. I'm on lamictal now and it seems like it works. I'm not much different other than I don't self injure as much. I think without the meds I would be dead or hospitalized right now from excessive self injury. Lamictal is a somewhat new treatment for bipolar, it used to just be for epilepsy. There's a variety of meds to choose from, sometimes its a long process to get one that actually helps. Did you find a medicine that works for you?

I tried to talk to my old doctor about how I feel on the meds. I told him that I accept the dx of bipolar. I just cant accept that I feel the way I do on meds. I would love to laugh and mean it for once. I found info on seroquel and geodon to take with me to the doc. He said no..just keep going with this. Hense, he is my old doc. I had a refill left on my meds to last until the new doc visit...well when old doc got the release records form he cancelled refills. So now I am flying solo until mid december. I just want to enjoy my life and not be blah or low.

Flying solo not to good. You may want to go to ER if you feel like your crashing. They will give you meds.

Thank you so much for the information. I am not crashing yet. Not as low as I can get. Thank you once again.

Pixie, I can relate! I feel like a zombie mostly. I don't laugh or smile easily anymore. I used to have a bubbly, warm personality now I feel like it is gone forever. Sometimes I wonder if I am over medicated. I take lamactil, lexapro, abilify, and seroquel.

First of all love Tinkerbell. I have Tink jammies, slippers, stickers, pens, stationary, and car floor mats all with that fairy's attitude! LOL Bipolar 2 is a newer diagnosis than bipolar 1 and has been misleadenly labelled "not as bad as bipolar" It's a harder diagnosis to make as BP 2 does not experience the manic highs of BP 1 but has lesser manic symptoms known as hypomanic. For example I'm bipolar 2 and the only symptom of hypomania I have is insomnia. Some BP 2's have difficulty describing their hypomanic symptoms to their pdoc as they just think they are feeling good for a period of time as BP 2 is reknowned for it's deep debilitating depression. Having BP 2 I feel on the depressed side most of the time. I feel just OK, never great. I grieve for the person I once used to be, but you have to make the best of your life especially if you have children depending on you. Hope this helps.

junggl, this helps alot. Sounds like me to a T. I miss who I used to be. Full of energy and total powerhouse. Life of the party so to speak. The meds seem to hamper that. Actually the bipolar did that on its own. I was just hoping that change of med change of attitude. Thank you so much. Tinkerbell is great. I have a daughter who loves her to bits.