This is hard to admit, but I have no where else to turn at this point. I have been addicted to pills for about 8 years... almost died from an overdose at one point, but it seems i cant learn my lesson. When I get depressed i play russian roulette with pills and alcohol. A few days ago it was klonipin, vicadin, and about 7 drinks. I knew it could be a deadly combo but i just didnt care. I have also been smoking pot for about 9 years. Since my boyfriend doesnt smoke I managed to quit (even though he never asked me to) about a month ago, but it makes dealing with depression even harder sometimes so i turn to my old faithful, my pills. My pdoc and boyfriend both say that if pot will get me off the pills then i should smoke it. But i honestly dont know if it will help or not. Its just when i hit rock bottom i take them in excess, otherwise i dont really take them at all. Has anyone had a similar experience and if so, any advice to give? I dont have insurance so a therapist or rehab is out of the question, I can barely afford the pdoc, and couldnt take anymore time off work anyway. Please if you understand what i am going through...let me know because this is a losing battle for me.
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