I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 disorder. This happened after I had tried to kill myself taking a lot of vicodin and anti depressants. I haven't been taking any medicine but more so regulating myself with marijuana.. this is hard because it keeps me more at a constant low. For some reason no matter how hard I try I can't stay on the medicine because I actually have panic attacks to the point where I cant function basically about the fact that I don't believe I'm bipolar.. it's like constant thinking, I can't convince myself that I am. No medicine has helped me but only made me feel worse and made my anxiety a million times worse. But I do notice my moods are up and down a lot with my girlfriend to the point where i'm sometimes really really rude to her for no reason. I'd say I almost get to the point where i'm verbally abusive and that is not how I want to be but I still find myself doing it.. Any help would be amazing.
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