Hi. I have usually always been on the upspring of my Bi-polar & (PTSD) with my deseise being rapid cycler with hypomanic episodes, not depression. My son died of crib death in 1997 and all I felt was shock and haven't even began the grieving stages, i.e. depression (dissasocition learned at childhood). I felt I was going mad and was angry. Anyway, this depression is new to me. One problem with my daughter and I is that she is constantly on me about acting like a kid beause of my personality which is upbeat. She is quite grumpy. I don't understand that if you have a giggy and giddy personality because that is how you are built, how that makes you sound childish? Also, I have been having trouble with neighbors. Further, after 2.5 years with boyfriend he tells me, "In MY house unless you pay, you do as you are told..." I dump my water out and say, "so in this house I have no voice," "no", I left. Very hard, I love him so much. How can I imagine a future with s/o like that. I mean even if it was 50/50 and he listened he would be arguing with me all the time. Why do we squander our years away on a relationship that our guardian angel already had us mutter out sometime, "this relationship is not going to work."
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