Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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I am beyond sad. I am miserable... I think I am doing well and poof... I hate myself again.
I have guilt, anxiety, depression, I am on the skids... I suppose there is some way to pull myself back up... but you know.. I don't want to do that... I want to get so friggin depressed that I finally do it. That I finally end this misery. I can't live another 50 years like this... that would be insane.. that would be the worst possible thing I could do... Who wants to live like this???? It is not an adventure... it is a ride on the Tower of Terror and I want OFF.
I have guilt, anxiety, depression, I am on the skids... I suppose there is some way to pull myself back up... but you know.. I don't want to do that... I want to get so friggin depressed that I finally do it. That I finally end this misery. I can't live another 50 years like this... that would be insane.. that would be the worst possible thing I could do... Who wants to live like this???? It is not an adventure... it is a ride on the Tower of Terror and I want OFF.
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i've been where you have with the depression. now i would advise go to the doctor and he/she will change ur meds.
to be honest i'm not a good patient. i just took my medication for a couple of weeks and said f this i'm living my life.
From my friends i know i have good morals so there's not much i can do wrong. and morals have to be at the core.
when i was depressed i just stopped intertaining the the notion of jumpin off the cliff. just don't think bad notions its a bit flighty i know but positive vibes work. i know people might think i'm suppressing feelings but was there ever a commandment that said life had to be serious. if you find urself getting into this state distract urself by focusing on exercise crosswords work something talk to someone about random stuff that make you happy. meet people and talk about random everyday things not such morbid things. go out with friends. Constant company for the next while will do u the world of good. but do take ur meds i'm not advicing anybody to do what i've done.after a while you'll see there probably isn't much of a point to life but it can be a whole lot of fun. charity work where you get to interact with people who have totally different issues can be really rewarding and a big eye opener, if you can do this. it would be good.
as for past mistakes honey there's plenty of people who have done worse and they don't have bypolar. whatch if ur sorry for them well and good that's enough you don't have to go around apologising to everyone. ur not in this world to be loved by everyone or to love everyone. and if sopmeone can't see youre no longer irratic, their bad. honey go out and live. just think about what you do and constantly ask is this right or wrong and just do the right thing. i can't emphasise enough that yesterday doesn't matter. as long as you can support a roof over ur head and put bread and butter on the table you'll be grand.
i hope ur not stressed about ur daughter.
trust me alot of good company with people u trust will do you the world of good. do stuff sports will be good. socialise, doll ur self up again. make fun.
i know this is all real cheesey but it can only help and it's worth a try. but as long as ur a nice good and in my books non judgmental ur there, let's face it here for a good time not a long time.
sorry for blabbing on and on.
hope you'll feel better soon.