I am doing okay right now. I am homeless, but I am okay. Shocking huh? I mean, on the 22nd my father kicked me out after beating me up. 3 days later, after staying at my best friend's house, I am back in the city I live in (which is not the city she lives in, but close) and am at the public library. I am going to spend the first night of my life ALONE in a domestic violence shelter for women and boys under 12. The first time I stayed at one of these places I was 11 and with my mother. Now I am doing it by myself.. well staying there that is. I have the support of my mother when she can, the love and support from my friends too. But I can't believe that I haven't fallen off the edge of bi polar mania yet. I am simply okay. I have cried, I have sat numb, I have slept a lot, but mostly I just am determined for something better to happen for me. This is a great achievement right? I haven't been my extremest bi polar self in a month. as far as mood swings.
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