I have an appt for wed for meds, for what has been, let's say a consistant preliminary diagnosis of what I recall is something like pervasive depressive disorder? Does that sound right? anyway. I'm supposed to be on prozac 40s they do me good when im on 'em but let's just say my insurance is sporadic at best and getting someone to spend 30 seconds writing something on a sheet of paper shouldn't cost me 90 bucks. well, i just got sent to some state mental clinic, so i have an appt for medication on wed and i suppose they'll make me see a psychiatrist cause that's what they told me, but why should i believe any of those people? Maybe they'll help me this time. Anyway, none of that has to do with my question. In my intake they asked me this time if i have trouble getting to sleep. I said no, well, whadda ya know, i can't frigging get to sleep. dammit. I generally don't have a problem but im like totally up tonight. but that has nothing to do with it either. I feel beside myself when i am what I refer to as funky. When I am aware that I am not behaving quite right, often I notice that I know that I am doing things that are inappropriate, but cannot stop myself. Like I look at myself in third person and can do nothing but watch. Does that belong here? or in some other forum?
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