Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Being level is overrated

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I have been level for a few days now, and I must say I prefer the numbing depression and chaotic mixed states. Now when something bad happens I fucking hurt, deep soulseering pain. I prefer the numb so what the fuck else is new of depression. I think I will stop the lamictal tomorrow
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oh pls don't do that. and not just b/c it could cause a very bad reaction! it is so bad to just stop your meds! talk to your doc first
Chuggernaught
Chuggernaught
Every episode will make your BP worse.
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Hey Shawn,

I don't know how long you've been on Lamictal (sorry, just joined), but did your doctor warn you that it can hurt? The Lamictal, I mean.

Lamictal is a funny drug. Since it is an anticonvulsant, it can sorta 'grab' ahold of your muscles (us seizure-y spazzes tend to face plant when our muscles go limp). When you *don't* have seizures, the drug doesn't know that, and can grab you *anyway*. Usually, this can be fixed simply by your doc adjusting your dose.

Don't give up, there's a solution out there.

Dymphna
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Going straight off Lamictal can really screw with you. Talk to your pdoc first.
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The pain is why I self medicated for years, It sucks but the damage I was causing my loved ones and friends hurts worse then the pain I am now feeling when something bad happens. I am also finding out that once you figure out how to deal with the pain constructivly it doesn't hurt as much. As Forest Gump said "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what your going to get". I like to add "I hate the chocolate covered cherries but I can spit them out and look for that carmel one"
Here if you need to vent or cry ShawnC.
Ron
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The only time I feel is Mixed states and then the feeling is EMPTINESS..

Emptiness is worse then death sadness is a true feeling and I miss feeling those things!!
Chuggernaught
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not2sure you need your dose adjusted. that's what that means.
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I hate the emptiness, but depression is almost better than this ache in my chest, I love someone so much I hurt. And that is plain fucked up!
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You need to come off the Lamictal gradually...or you might get really sick
Chuggernaught
Chuggernaught
You actually may be having a manic episode induced by the Lamictal. I had one when I first started. Either way tell you doctor. I know mania is not what comes to mind but there are signs to mania your Pdoc will know that you wont.
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please don't do this shawn. it could do so much damage to you. if you turn it around it could actually be a good thing. if you can feel hurt imagine what feeling happiness would be like. it will come. you deserve only the best...xx
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