Its just occurred to me that perhaps the uncomfortable feelings I have with this potential new therapist, might be bcs I felt judged. I know all new therapists judge you in the sense in the ways you can work together. Then I've got to be careful that I am not projecting my judgement of her. All of this I will mention this week.
I'm wondering now if this is a lot of projection and fear. I think I felt judged in the sense of the scope of my bipolar, and whether I am stable enough for therapy.
Have any of you felt judged so early in therapy? Remember some of this might be in my own head. If I was in her place I would have felt thrown too. From what I can gather, she is a very experienced therapist. My care/co has heard about her, all good things. I am going to give her the benefit of the doubt. But I really must address my feelings of being unjustifiably judged. Idk.I think I was too full on, not stopping for breath for 40 mins. I've been hypomanic for a while, so maybe I was just too intense. Again, idk.
I can’t sleep. My guts churn and regret grips me. The house isn’t clean enough, I got overly annoyed with my dogs and daughter today, at one point I was straight up mean (that’s the worst!!)..Thats why I can’t sleep. I was mean. And oh how I regret it so so much.My pup peed on a mattress we had laid down to watch movies today. I was so mad. I firmly swatted her butt (I know better than...
My dad is ringing a lot. I have been no contact for approx 3 months now. i cannot answer as I know they will guilt and shame me about making them feel bad. This tactic usually works but I realized I cannot be held responsible for their feelings. Anyway I have realized dealing with complex PTSD I cannot have family in my corner as they are not helpful. Anyway this whole situation is bringing me...