Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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sometimes good and sometimes not.
I'm in the latter mood, wanting to have a partner around. I learned to enjoy being alone a few years ago, after splitting off from my ex. I learned to enjoy my own company.
But there is too much of a good thing. Yikes, a similar thought was expressed by my best friend around here last night at a local bar. We'd gone to listen to a young woman sing who is really good at singing old country music, very talented. I was talking to another woman and my buddy was listening in, and made a comment about how ten years of marriage can be tough for even the closest couples.
So, when we're with somebody, we long sometimes to be alone. And, when we're alone, we long sometimes to be with somebody.
I'm in the latter mood, wanting to have a partner around. I learned to enjoy being alone a few years ago, after splitting off from my ex. I learned to enjoy my own company.
But there is too much of a good thing. Yikes, a similar thought was expressed by my best friend around here last night at a local bar. We'd gone to listen to a young woman sing who is really good at singing old country music, very talented. I was talking to another woman and my buddy was listening in, and made a comment about how ten years of marriage can be tough for even the closest couples.
So, when we're with somebody, we long sometimes to be alone. And, when we're alone, we long sometimes to be with somebody.
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My psychiatrist yesterday reccomended I lookat a new app called "Insomnia Coach" -It's put out by Veteran's Affairs (VA) and it's free and she was just really excited about it since she ispartly involved with them.Sending good vibes!M
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Okay new song, to the tune of Somewhere Over the Rainbow, add a verse.....Somewhere over the RainbowI'm not illAnd in the dreams of my head spaceDays float by so well.Somewhere over the rainbowMy brain is soothedAnd in the dreams of my head spaceI can do whatever I choose.Someday I'll never need a pillWhere manic phases don't occurA place with no Depression fearWake rested from a sound...
I have to say though that I enjoy my husband. We have developed some hobbies and special interests that we both enjoy so when we are together we have fun. I dont get to be with him as much as I would like as he works alot but I take what I can get there too. Marriage is always a work in progress but we never had serious issues other than my BP symptoms to learn to manage. I was blessed and married a saint, lol
I hope one day you do find that special someone because I think you are an amazing man from what you have shown us here...xo
However, nights like tonight I feel it and I wish I had a partner. Someone to spend time with and have some fun. :(
But I get what you're saying. But like yaya said, sometimes it would be cool to have someone to hang out with sometimes.
Then I see the odd couple who share the same interests, the same ideals, the same love for each other.
I hold onto the hope that I am one of the odd couples.
I so enjoy liveing alone.
I have a friend w benifits - on my terms ( when I want to go out or have butty call ).
Hell no I will not let anyone spend more than 2 days w/in my home.
I love my own company - life.
If I want to go out and dance I can find a guy to do so with.
If I want company at restraunt, I can get that too w/o dine n pay thing, w/o date visiting my place vice versa nor checking out celi in motels,lol
If - when I want to use my buddy for sex & to be used I hook up w my deaar friend ( friend w benifits)
I veiw people as live entertainment. I don't need to be intertained all the time..
Now I'm with someone that I have much more in common with. When he's away I want to curl up in a ball and sleep. When he's with me I come to life. I love the good times we have together so much. It's nice to be with people we enjoy. If it's not comfortable and you have nothing in common then it's time to be alone until the right person comes along.
Then there are times when I am thankful for who I married and what this union has produced. I am a creature of change and relationships can feel very constricting and routine and I tend to lose myself in the process. It's 50/50 with me and I guess that's what keeps me grounded.
Not in the single sense. As much as sometimes I would like a partner that is often outweighed by remembering how much of an abusive jackass my last boyfriend was. Then it usually goes "well at least he's not here."
But otherwise, I absolutely hate being alone. Causes a lot of anxiety and I start to have mental breakdowns.
What most consider "solitude" I interpret as "solitary confinement."