i'm a mess and could use any advice possible that's out there. trying like hell to work things out with my husband who has pretty much left me out in the cold once finding out i had bipolar and that hurts like hell. so then he suggests a "trial weekend" to see how things went and they were shaky last night and for obvious reasons, i haven't been to our house in forever and my mother in law still hasnt' moved out yet and she was there, big disappointment. this morning was the same then he went to work out and called to tell me he was going out tonite. how the hell do you have a trial weekend when you do nothing with your wife and kids? what? a trial to see how i'd react to him deserting me again, as usual? his answer, i'm not sure i'm in love. i've never cried about you being gone (we're separated and have been for almost 6 weeks, i'm staying at my moms) he's only cried b/c he misses his daughter, who just turned one. so here i am at home in total despair and just want things ended, not that i could ever in a million years act on it, ihave two precious children i love to death. but i don't know what to do, i have never hurt this bad and i hate how his actions control my feelings. i just spent two and a half weeks in daily group therapy, 6 hours a day, five days a week and feel like i got nowhere. thinking the meds aren't doing what they're supposed to do because otherwise i feel like i'd be in better control. i'm in such despair!!! please, i need some great advice on getting out of this stupid mood before doing something stupid.