I've been off work for three weeks (except for a couple days last week) and am returning on Monday. I'm not so nervous about what to tell people. A lot of them already know I'm bp. I'm just nervous about whether I can handle the stress. I'm going to try to prepare all I can so the week is as low stress as possible (get laundry done, plan menus, go shopping, etc.). The problem is that I'm not motivated to do any of that and I'm still having parasuicidal thoughts. MIL is coming tonight to stay with me this weekend (while DH is gone) so I don't do anything stupid. I'm just not sure I'm ready to go back to work but we need the money. I guess I'll try it and see how it goes. I wish I could think of something to make my job less stressful but I've already done everything I can think of. Its just that my job requires a great deal of multi-tasking as well a frequent interaction with people. I make lists and prioritize and that helps. At least I have an office where I can close the door for a while if I need to. Anyhow, I just wanted to vent a little.
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