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at the end of my rope

deleted_user
deleted_user
i had a huge fight with my mum tonight because i lied about paying a car payment i didnt paid and i then used some of the money to buy things till i got my wages tomorrow.

i got the usual:

you are a huge dissapointment to me
you always screw things up
you are a thief and a liar
you dont deserve anything i give you
you have hurt me so badly.

my friend is having problems at home and we are moving in together to a flat, mostly so she can get away from her mum.

my mum was going to deny me the money my gran was going to give me to help with the first months rent.

saying i have fucked up my friends life because of my actions.

if i had the courage
i'd kill myself tonight

yes this is probably a cry for help
starfish
starfish
Your mum may be well intentioned, but what she is saying and doing to you is causing a great deal of harm.

Do you have any resources available to help you get a therapist?
deleted_user
deleted_user
yes, i am going to see my doctor on
dancingd
dancingd
OK....cry for help heard.
Lovie...it might be time to seek professional care...NOW!
Dial 911(or UK equivalent)or a crisis line.
At the bottom of every DS page are numbers....I don't know if there is any thing there for the UK.

But if you are feeling this badly...a little chat on DS might not be enough.Be safe ..be careful...let us know how you are doing.
Halterbroke
Halterbroke
Sometimes family members just don't know what to do. (certainly mine never do!) Hang in there, and please do NOT be alone tonight, call a friend, be with a friend, go to the ER if you must and we will talk to you till you have someone.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hey BPgirl, hope you are ok... I think what your mom said is very hurtful. She should be more supportive. I agree though, if you are feeling that bad maybe go to the hospital. I always have problems with money too, I feel for ya.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Wow, that's enough to make anybody depressed - bp or not. My advice - don't be alone. Can you visit with your friend that you're moving in with?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Understand that things that people (expecially fam) hurt. Please take percautions. Call a crisis number, or go to the hospital. Just don't be alone tonight. Let us know how you are doing.
deleted_user
deleted_user
sometimes i think mums can be really hard on their daughters because they want them to be a certain way,,, their way.... don't take everything she said to heart,, I'm sure there was some anger and hurt behind those words..
I am in no way justifying what she said! just trying to think of a reason why she would say such things
U have love and support here, and I'm sure ur friend will be there for you too
deleted_user
deleted_user
I agree with Aspen and Dancing... get some professional help as soon as possible. You are crashing and going up in flames! You're getting NO support from your family and you're standing on one leg... without a crutch. Discussing this on DS is alright, but, you need more support. A cyber-hug is not going to fix your problem! For gawd's sake, woman, just hang on and get the help you need!
Also, give yourself 24 hours to heal yourself. Really... just hang on for 24 hours and you'll be amazed on your change of attitude. The doom and gloom shit will go away! Again, just hang on!
We're ALL behind you... with encouragement... now, you do your part! HANG ON!
Moocho huggers!
Keith
deleted_user
deleted_user
i'm going to see my doctor on wednesday to get me back in to therapy.

i feel like shit today, couldnt get myself out of bed for uni this morning.

my mum is acting like we are best friends again.

i cant wait to move out.

thank you everyone for your support.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hey BpGirl: Another Brit here. I think Wednesday is too long a time to wait for your current state of mind. I realize some behavioural health places will already be closed for the weekend because of the time difference so just call one of the crisis numbers and hear it from a professional who probably has coping skills we on DS haven't thought of.
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