I'm currently not at uni or placement as ive bin strongly advised 2 take time off by a shrink. I have crisis visiting me on a regular basis for assessment and am on a small dose of Olanapine 4 anxiety. I've bin trying 2 get out the house as much as poss so i don't bcum isolated. My uni "friends" dn't understand why i havn't gone 2 a lecture 2day and r mad at me. They say u can quite happilly go 2 t cinema or pub. Thats bullshit - i really hav 2 make a huge effort 2 get out t house as i just feel so vulnerable at the mo. They dont seem 2 realise they're putting extra pressure on me. The only person who understands is my friend Sarah and my rents - they'll stand byme no matter wot. I have bin advised 2 postpone t course 4 a while as my healh cums first. Also im only 19 - i shud b enjoyin life not hating it. I just wish things were better rite now. I woz so happy yesterday as i thort i had all sussed out - until i went 2 the cinema n my friends wer off with me. 3's a crowd n im t 1 being pushed 2 t side. I'm scared 2 b alone.
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