I'm going to the hospital today. I absolutely went full blown manic yesterday. Most of the day is a fog. Maybe it was the 6o xanax I took, or just me being a super ass. This the first time I've had a day of total almost blackout. I understand I was pretty brutal and for that I'm sorry. kaykay is not what I wrote she is. I checked some of the stuff this morning and was a little shocked to say the least. I'm sorry. but most of yesterday was foggy to me. I'm going into the hospital today because yesterday scared the shit out of me. I don't even recognize the person I was yesterday. Kaykay has been telling me she was seeing my mania increasing for weeks now, and asked to to get help, but I thought she didn't know what she was talking about until this morning.
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