I crashed last night. I got all pissy with my boyfriend and even though he said not to worry about it, I could tell it affected him. He did come over and hug me when I was crying, the crying just came out of nowhere. We talked a bit, then I went upstairs to bed. This morning, I couldn't pull myself out of bed to get to work in time. My boyfriend called the house from his job and when I answered, he got mad at me because I was asleep, when I should have been at work. He made this comment on how he will have to work overtime to make up for my lost time. He knows how much I want him home in the evenings. Now I feel this terrible guilt. It is eating me up. It is bugging me at work that I can't concentrate. I have a tight stomach, I feel this rush of fear every now and then. I know he would never break up with me over this, but I still feel tremdous guilt. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry, but I will then feel guilty for saddening those around me. My boyfriend can always tell when I am not right, no matter how much I try to hide it. Hence, more guilt. Does anyone out there have this guilt problem after being in a low? It really eats me up inside. I can't think of anything that will make me feel better. I am so afraid.
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