I hesitate posting this because I haven't had the best responses in the past but I need to say that I have been unmedicated for 4 months now and am doing way better than I was when I was on and off meds. Meds changed me dramically. They made me more suicidal, more crazy, more manic, and more out of my frickin' mind. I was under a committment and had court ordered meds so they were forced on me. I had numerous hospitalizations. I was literally out of my mind. I almost lost my kids and my family and friends. nobody could stand to be near me. I was psychotic. and after an adjustment period of my body getting used to not having the meds, I stabled out for the first time ever. I have been stable, (yes, I admit that I am depressed) but it is way better than the craziness of rapid cycling I was experiencing before. My family and friends have said so many times how nice it is to have the real me back and not the crazy psycho who took over my body for years. I have rebuilt my relationships with my kids and husband. So you have to know and believe that meds DO change you. sometimes for the worst. Is there anyone else out there med free and doing well? what do you do to cope with depression?
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