OK SO I WAS DIAGNOSED BIPOLAR IN APRIL LAST YEAR. I HAVENT TAKEN ANY MEDS FOR IT OR ANYTHING. I SUPPOSE I'M IN DENIAL. BECAUSE I DID SOME RESEARCH ON PEOPLE WHO SUFFER FROM IT AND WELL IT JUST DOSNTSEEM LIKE ME. I DUNNO...ONE QUESTION IS DO PEOPLE WHO SUFFER FROM BP MAKE RASH DECISIONS? JUST WITHOUT THINKING...BLAH BLAH BLAH?? I RECENTLY BROKE UP WITH MY G/F BECAUSE I JUST FELT UNLOVED AND SHE JUST SEEMED DETATCHED ETC. SO LITTLE BY LITTLE I WAS JUST GETTING MORE AND MORE UNHAPPY WITH THE RELATIONSHIP....I FINALLY BROKE IT OFF AND MOVED. THEN DECIDED I HAVE NO PLACE THAT I CAN BE REALLY A FRIEND OR MY DAD...ETC. I ASKED HER IF SHE COULD TAKE ME BACK. BECASE I CAME TO VISIT HER AND WE CRIED AND TALKED ETC. AND SEEMED LIKE EVERYTHING WAS OK. BUT I HAD ALREADY MADE THE MOVE AND TRANSFERED SCHOOLS ETC. BUT NOW ITS LIKE SHE IS SAYING SHE JUST NEEDS TIME TO THINK...AND I DONT BLAME HER AT ALL..BUT I'M JUST SO LOST AND CONFSUED. SHE TELLS ME SHE CANT HANDLE ME BEING SO INCONSISTANT AND THAT HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I FELT LIKE LEAVING THE RELATIONSHIP. SO LIKE I SAID I TOTALLY DO NOT BLAME HER ONE BIT BUT I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. IS THAT SOMETHIGN SOMEONE WHO IS BIPOLAR WOULD DO? SO NOW I'M BACK IN THE TOWN WE WERE BOTH LIVING IN...GONNA LIVE WITH MY BROTHER IN LAW. JUST GIVING HER HER SPACE....I DONT WANT TO HURT HER ANYMORE. BUT I REALIZED THAT I DO LOVE HER AND THAT I WAS LUCKY TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE HER BUT I DUNNO...MY HEART IS BROKEN AND I UNDERSTNAD HER BEAING WEARY AND UNSURE. :( SIGH WHAT SHOULD I DO? SHOULD I LEAVE HER ALONE? BUT WE STILL DO QUICK PECKS AND HUGS ETC. SHOULD I CONTINUE TO GET KISSES N HUGS? AM I HOLDING ON TO SOMETHING THEN SHE DECIDES LATER AFTER SHE FELT SHE HAD THE TIME TO THINK..."OH WELL YEAH I DONT WANT THIS AFTER ALL' WHAT DO I DO? I NEED HELP....SHOULD I TAKE MEDS? ANY INFO OR INPUT OF ANY KIND PLEASE REPLY THANK YOU SO MUCH...I'M TIRED OF BEING UNHAPPY AND TIRED OF MY HEART HURTING...TIRED OF UNCERTAINTY
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