it just scares them like we have leprosy or something, when actually we are wonderful people catching on our good days....or should i say? not catching us on our bad ones?

Who says you did anything wrong? Unless we're talking to ourselves then communication involves at least one other person, a person that we don't control who may misunderstand and who may or may not respond in a manner we appreciate. You've been brave, you put yourself out there and that takes strength. If this other person can't acknowledge that then it's their loss. You've done your part and there's nothing wrong with that!

I would limit telling others things about BP or other intimacies until a solid relationship has been established.

I had my 20 year HS reunion this summer and found some people via the internet beforehand. I emailed one guy I hadn't talked to in 25 years even. I kicked myself...well, still kicking myself for sharing what I think is too much. I did not tell him I was BP, but other things I said I probably should have waited.
I find myself assuming a lot of shit that isn't true. So when I don't hear from someone for a long while after emailing, I figure it's me and I said something wrong. Dummy me, I forget that it's not ALWAYS about me.
It is fun to get in contact with old friends though.

Sometimes its best to let the past behind and not to go on fishing expeditions. The fact that you told him you were bp probably made him apprehensive about writing to you. Since it is said and done though its a lesson well learned by you. Don't feel too bad though I've made so many mistakes since being bipolar that I can't remember half of them. Someone once told me that bp people spend a lot of their existence apologizing for their behavior. So I know where your coming from. Good luck to you in the future and let me know how things are going with you.

Hey hun,
Its a kinda trait we have..Give it time..I go off if i dont get a reply to a post for 10 mins...

A little more info. I knew this guy for two years, as in saw him almost everyday during those college years. He even cooked filet mignon for me, some expensive wine. We took a Russian lit class together. Interesting guy but it's been years and years... does seem so strange to contact him now, when I never never thought I contacting him before.
Please explain me to myself, folks. At a total loss on this one. Help!

So, what you are saying here is....

I wrote this guy an email... fell in love with him, shared my emotional state, and didn't get a response back?

Happens to me all the time... welcome to the bipolar skew in thinking.

let it go, go back to the memoir, and quit obsessing about some guy not answering your email. you do whats good for you and screw everyone else... I don't know about you but I have it tough enough anyway, not going to let anyone drag me down again. Doesn't mean i won't open up, but I protect me first

Hmmmmmm.....I used to have a nasty habit of opening the closet door and all the skeletons fell out and scared everyone away. Average people aren't wired to expect such monstrosities. I would tell you to start with small talk and gradually work up to the thing that ail you.

It is not uncommon to want to recontact some one after all these years, especially when it is someone you have fond memories with or unresolved issues. You can't however control how they might act, react or feel. Sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn't.

I took one prozac about 4 hours ago, well so much for the angst. Now I'm just silly. I must say this is the most peculiar version of bipolar I think I've experienced yet! Mood shifts so fast - of course I am extremely sensitive to antidepressants!!!!!
Now I'm thinking maybe it isn't the guy I'm obsessing about, maybe it was that really good bottle of wine. Steak doesn't sound too bad either. No, I cannot handle alcohol worth a d... but it doesn't mean I cannot appreciate a fine wine.
This is one more unstable mood state. I've been coming off a manic high for 4 months, slowly coming down, keep from crashing with the prozac (which just makes me silly). I cannot take mood stabilizers. All I've got to work with is klonipin and prozac. not ideal!
As for the memoir, writing is going very well, but I'm written out for the day. Writing 7 to 8 hours a day.
Thank you for all your responses.
I am a little worried about the extreme shifting I am experiencing, so unstable, not the worst thing I've been through by any stretch. But a bit different

Maybe he's just been too busy to give your long detailed email the proper response it deserves. I know I'm that way. I go weeks w/o reading my emails. Also, congratulations on writing your memoirs.