I'm in the process of getting all the Dr paper work together for SSD. Any advice on tht process would be greatly appreciated. Can I get an idea how much SSD would be? Any way to calculate it based on how much they have withheld from my pay?

I too have issues with anger & rage, but Depakote has saved my life. I understand your situation. I've nearly lost my job due to anger issues.

Keep on the med merry-go-round. There's plenty of meds out there. Risperdal wasn't really effective for me, but it could be the ticket for you. I don't know. Your doc doesn't know. All you and your doc can do is to keep trying.Try another doc if you suspect something is wrong. I did and I am glad. My previous doc is a great guy, but I wasn't getting any better.

As far as SSD/SSI, I don't think it pays much (I could be wrong) and I have heard you will have to jump through many hoops to get it. It's almost a guarantee you'll be denied on your first pass.

I had an angry outburts (or a couple, really..) today, in fact. it seems the smallest thing can set me off, even if I think Im in a good mood. I havent yet figured out how to get my anger on a leash, but, strenth willing, Ill get there, and so will You.

almost everything in my life has been pushed away from my anger or rage. this is something i don't understand where it comes from or why. what makes it worse is having no control over it. because of it i can no longer work or even get out much.(to many out bursts) i'm with you i'm afraid to spend the rest of my life heavily medicated or in a phsyciatric hospital. your meds might have to be changed if your anger is out of control. get help as soon as possible. this month i've been rage free. thank GOD to meds!

Don't quote me on this, but I think disability is a fixed rate, and SSI (social securtity) is according to what you've paid into it. They are two different things.