I felt so good the past couple of days - have been increasing my RX per docs instruction and it makes it hard to get up in morning. Last night I had another increase - I guess my husbnad though he was doing me a favor by letting me sleep today - It's almost 2 p.m. and I'm just getting up. It ticks me off. He was thoughtful, yes - but I have to force myself to be on regular schedule due to work. Now my entire day is shot. I can feel the icky feelings that BP has starting to race through my mind. NOw I just want to sit here in my PJ's and do nothing - when I had a full day planned. None of it will get done, which will make me feel worse...and he gets fussed at in a not so nice way for trying to be nice. Why can't I just appreciate that he was being thoughtful of me instead of getting pissed about it?
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