Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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What is Ugly? What is the difference between what others percieve and what we believe to be true about ourselves? Only when we have grown older and wiser through experience that we become more objective about ourselves and our past. When I have an attack of depression it is so deep that I am unable to percieve the way I am when I am feeling much better. My therapist once asked me if I thought I could ever be happy. I said I didn't know because I had never experience happiness as a way of life... He might as well asked me if I thought I would ever find a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. One of the driving forces in the human race is the need to feel understood. Most of us with severe mental disorders suffer silently....wondering what is going on with us...feeling bad, ugly, stupid...we feel that asking for help exposes our weakness/ugliness and puts us at risk of being misunderstood/shamed/punished/rejected. Does anyone out there feel the same, or am I way off base?
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do you want to be happy?
Maybe yo are haveing a good time being unhappy.
I say this with love
Maybe you like being a victim.
I find that when I feel like that depressed really down there. I need to do positive stuff. This disease lies to me and tells me things like I am worthless dumb blah bleh.
I am what I think and do. So when I am really down. I do the oppisite of whatr I think. I do positive things that could be the dishes. Or helping another person. I try to do ten acts of random kindness a day. That helps ward off the depresions.
I hope this helps I dont like seeing people suffer.
Well, I think you wrote a beautiful Topic here
I know Ive been a real challenge in therapy because I wouldnt open up and admit the tortuous thoughts I have..how all my anger turns inward.
I knew these thoughts and feelings were abnormal...I couldnt admit it to anyone.
This is all slowly changing however and I am stating to break through these barriers to happiness.
And if beauty is in the eye of the beholder then so is ugly.
I'd be happy to judge whether I'm enjoying being miserable. I'm incapable of making that judgment for somebody else.