Ok, so my man has been planning to go hang out today with his best bud. I was already bothered by this because our crazy life means that we have NO family time...ever. BUT, I also understand his need for man time...so I was trying to be understanding. Then today comes along and his buddy, who works graveyard, is still sleeping and not answering his phone. So, Donte (my guy) decides he is going to drive down there and if his bud doesnt want to go out then he is still going to go out alone. This bothers me because I know that he doesnt make good choices when he drinks...he doesnt know when to cut himself off and will probably end up having to stay out there. This bothers me because I dont know where he will be or even if he will be safe. I am also upset because my idea of a good time is taking the family to go bowling or maybe even going on a date with him. BUT, he doesnt think of this...he just wants to get out. To me, this is a bad sign because it signifies how little of a "family" mindset he has. All he wants to do is get out...away from home. And since I am not invited, i assume this means me too. I can understand that he needs to hang out with his buddy...but to want to go out alone if the buddy flakes. i want him to tell me to try and get a sitter so we can go together. anyhow, I am feeling rejected...and I dont really trust him when it comes to women. So, the knowledge that he is going out "alone" dosnt set well with me...especially since he will have some excuse why he doesn't answer his phone. So, my question is...am I right that this whole issue signifies a deeper problem...an issue of incompatibility? Or, am I just trippin and I should be more understanding that he works his butt off for us and just needs to get away. He got paid yesterday and before we met he used to go out every weekend and hang out with the regulars at the bar. Does he just want a damiliar scene and it is nothing against me...I dont know what to think. Plus, he hasnt taken his meds since yesterday morning so I know this whole night, with the drinking, is going to start a rough week. I just feel pissed off cuz I want him to be more family oriented.
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