I cant take this f'n s*it anymore.. I hate living here.. I feel like a child living with my mother.. I cant do what i want to do.. Im friggin crying.. I feel like a baby cause im tired of friggin crying.. Yeah thats what happens when you have bipolar you FREAK OUT! So im tired of people telling me to quit freaking out.. I feel like a louse cause i cant get a job.. I think everyone thinks in my family that im the worst sibling.. I was a good kid.. But i suck as an adult.. I want to be happy is that to much to ask.. If i could have everything in my life taken from me and given happiness then i would be fine.. Only time i was ever happy for a period of time was 10 yrs and under.. UUUHHHHH
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