Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I was stable for approximately 5 months. I did seemed to be dealing with everthing well. I was no longer hewing people up and spitting them out for the fun of it. I even made it from being laid off my job after nine years because they found out I was bi-polar and did not want to deal with me.
Recently, I have started chewing on cashiers, customer service people and my on family just because I can. I am spending money like there us no tomorrow and not having a job makes that not a good thing. In addition, I have been having really bad panic attacks that are starting to get embassassing.
The stress of not being able to find a job is having a huge effort on me and my ego. I have never been unemployed for more then a week or two unless it is my choice. Now I go on interview after interview and then I ge the little letter in the mail that thanks me for my time and sends me on my way.
I do not know what to do at this point. I appreciate any feedback that you would like to send to me.
Recently, I have started chewing on cashiers, customer service people and my on family just because I can. I am spending money like there us no tomorrow and not having a job makes that not a good thing. In addition, I have been having really bad panic attacks that are starting to get embassassing.
The stress of not being able to find a job is having a huge effort on me and my ego. I have never been unemployed for more then a week or two unless it is my choice. Now I go on interview after interview and then I ge the little letter in the mail that thanks me for my time and sends me on my way.
I do not know what to do at this point. I appreciate any feedback that you would like to send to me.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
You, in my opinion are not getting the proper meds to control your bipolar. Your panic attacks are getting bad a frequent and embarassing becuase you have not learned how to balance yourself on the inside. You are probably confused as hell and scared out of your mind. when you cycle in bipolar you act out in the ways that you have described. It comes out in anger because you haven't learned any other way to deal with it. One thing that you can do, is when you feel like you are going to chew on someone, STOP!!!! Look at them from a far and think about the good in them. about the good in you. Don't lower yourself and give in to the pressures of controlling it. Honey, you cannot control this. It controlls you, you take meds to regulate your moods during your cycle and then when you are back to a normal level of being, write in a journal things like, what was happening when these feelings came up. What was my first thought? Did I feel any physical symptoms inside or outside of my being. Learn to recognize those things and take the proper meds. Work them together and things will ease their way back to normalcy sooner than you think. Do some reading up on the disease so you better understand what your brain is doing or not doing. It is all about the chemicals in your brain misfiring or mistakenly recieving chemicals. If you have any questions, just let me know. Hon....I have been where you are and it is gonna be hard work to get better, but, with the right guidence and a good Dr. you will come out on top. Especially when you understand it.