I've been obsessing over things for a long time. I thought it would all go away when I got older, but instead it just got worse. I did use it to write stories, but I can't anymore. This has effected everything I've done. I have finally got to the point that I don't try to hide it anymore. Actually, last year a wrote a couple of love notes to my way older brother in law. I tried to get him to have an affair with me! He got really pissed because he's a minister in his church and everything and he's all religious and everything. I'm religious too, it just didn't even occur to me during my obsession about all the wrong things I was doing. He told on me. He went straight to my husband and showed him the notes and everything! My husband wanted to kill me. Literally, I think. But we talked it out instead of fought it out or anything like that. My husband was getting ready to divorce me. So I told him everything about everything and he stayed with me and is still helping me with my problems. My brother in law and sister in law both were very understanding after it was all explanied to them. My neurologist told me to see a physicatrist! Finally! I wanted a doctor to refer me to a shrink, because I'm ashamed of myself. I got all these things to say, and I don't know how to say everything.