Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Im new here and although ive not been diagnosed as bipolar i am pretty sure that i am. Sounds damm ridiculous that ive not been to a doctor i suppose, i do wanna go coz im at a point now where im unhappy and need to get something done but 1. i dont like my doctor and in sunny england its near impossible to change 2.i dont want anyone to think bad of me, i feel like my family will think im crazy and stuff 3. i dont wanna have to rely on pills.
Ive thought i was bipolar for a while now, after i had my son in 2005 i was diagnosed with post natal depression, they just shoved some pills at me and that was supposed to be it, problem solved. I didnt take the pills, well not for longer than i week, they made me feel worse so i was like fuck this. I wanted to prove a point to myaelf that i didnt need pills, i felt i was letting everyone down and i was ashamed. i only told my friend and thats the same to this day.Ever since then on and off ive felt like i have amost a split personality. Ive read a lot about bipolar and reading peoples stories sometimes its like its me talking. Im no doctor but i know there is something not right with me. One day ill be happy, on top of the world, lovin life, lovin myself the next day i can be crying all day, aggressive, angry, bitchy and i cant even explain why. Its like permenant PMT. I know everyones gonna tell me to go to the doctors and i know your right but how do i approach it? i dunno what to say? im scared of being on pills forever is there any other way?
Ive thought i was bipolar for a while now, after i had my son in 2005 i was diagnosed with post natal depression, they just shoved some pills at me and that was supposed to be it, problem solved. I didnt take the pills, well not for longer than i week, they made me feel worse so i was like fuck this. I wanted to prove a point to myaelf that i didnt need pills, i felt i was letting everyone down and i was ashamed. i only told my friend and thats the same to this day.Ever since then on and off ive felt like i have amost a split personality. Ive read a lot about bipolar and reading peoples stories sometimes its like its me talking. Im no doctor but i know there is something not right with me. One day ill be happy, on top of the world, lovin life, lovin myself the next day i can be crying all day, aggressive, angry, bitchy and i cant even explain why. Its like permenant PMT. I know everyones gonna tell me to go to the doctors and i know your right but how do i approach it? i dunno what to say? im scared of being on pills forever is there any other way?
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I hope you will seek pro help
and good luck to you
The thing that jumps out from yr info is that...what if you were diagnosed as BP ?..Then how would YOU take that.It seems that you are terrified of the possibility of having to take pills.
My brother still baulks at me when I talk of my ten years of medication.I understand your fear.But my brother hasn't survived this illness like I have.The extremities are outside the realms for people to fully comprehend.
BUT many here are medicated and perfectly amazing for it.
It is here you come for help.
It is how real you can be for yourself that matters.
It's not a weakness if you need medication.
Better that than frazzle in denial.
You are not diagnosed yet so put all that bullshit to one side.
Approach yr GP cos here in Birmingham, like many parts of England, there has been a recent drive towards expanding the system to reach out more and lessen the stigmas you are facing.
Don't scare yrself on the hearsay that is in yr head.Try go on facts.
Peace and all the best.
Im most definatly suffering from some form of depression that needs treating but bipolar always seemed to fit me if you like, i seem to fit into everything i rad about the condition. I hope its not in a way but i just wanna get sorted and normal again.
I know pills sound scary and being diagnosed with a mental illness isn't anyones dream come true.
But by getting on the right meds you can have a better life. It may take time but it is worth it.
Good luck!