don't even know where to start. i am so glad i found this site tonight. people w/out bp just don't understand. i fell so alone, so worthless, that everyone in my life would be better w/out me. other people looking in often say you have a wonderful husband, beautiful children a good job. so whats your problem? i don't know because i know i have all of these things. but i don't feel like i deserve them. i have done so wrong. i have been so mean and hateful to my dh. i feel like i have no one to talk to. my bestest friend in the whole world keeps saying i can call her anytime. but i end up feeling like a bother. i am not in grade school. i feel stupid calling her up crying. thats all i do anymore. i am being treated. and i go back to the dr soon. i have been reading other topics. and it sounds just like my life. my poor house. i don't like living this way but there are days where the task just seems so big. my husband puts up with a lot. and its so not fair to him or my children. i have often thought of leaving. i just hope that finding this site helps a little. thanks for listening
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