I find myself drinking more and more often. I mix booze with seroqel and clonazapam most nights. I know there are support groups out there somewhere for people who drink and are bipolar but I don't have clue one where to look for them and even if I did I won't have the will to go. I am starting to think I am using this as a way to die slowly. I find myself thinking...maybe I'll get lucky and won't wake up in the morning. I visualize myself laying there foaming at the mouth and then my dead body there in the bed. Anyone else see themselves dying? I mean visualizing the scene etc?
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