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When I look at the stuff I was working on during last manic bout, it kinda freaks me out....Does anyone else have these kind of remnants..the garbled writing on tiny scraps of paper..and the rest of it? I had a suitcase full of stuff. I still can't bear to really look at it. Anyone else relate?
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yes and then there is the annual burn
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oh geeze, yes. i hate to admit it, but yes. i have post-it note pads full of crazy gibbirish... thoughts that i want to remember mostly. i throw those away.
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You should see my computer desk right now!! There are scraps of paper all over the place, even thumb-tacked to the wall!! lol.
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Craft projects, and about 6 different types of glue to go with.... sigh
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noticed a scrap of sticky tape on a windowpane the other day, from where I tried to paper them. Ouch.
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I just don't want to look at the past. I have piles of paper, and I can't even look at them. Until I have to look for someting that is important. You are not alone. Be happy ,Maremio
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I keep it all.Papers.Bits of envelopes.Artwork...all the mess and the beauty and the shit.Kurt Vonnegut did that stuff ?
I have a diary full of scrawled ramblings.
Folders full of songs.Funny..the writing differs too...then gets better as I do.
The first lot...
I bought a 'Buzz Lightyear' folder for !! hahaha

First time...I was up and down and up after hospital.No Lithium for a while

Risen

I can feel my ocean blood flow
As I tap through it's undertow
Lazarus charmed, rejuvenation.
Chemical Sleep Deprivation.


Manic and good and shit and incomplete.
Every BP relates to Lazarus.Or can do.
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yes, indeed x kept it also but much is indecipherable.
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I am a doodler, I can fill a full a4 page of scribbled triangles, which make squares, I have gone on tangents making things to sell, spent a fortune and are left with what I have made and tried to sell. Hubby goes nuts over my get rich quick scams as they only end up costing us money.

Oh dear :((
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Indecipherable is GOOD too.Let it prise you open again and again.Remind you how far you've come...non-linearly, I mean : )
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roadmap to Hell etc yeah.
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The trouble is in that state you belive you are going to strike it rich, and finally have found something to occupy your energy, racing thoughts of gradure and positivity, It hits you when you start to come down, then Im faced with trying to explain it to hubby.

All done with great intentions at the time. :((
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:)
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:)
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Next time I'm manic I'm gonna bake a big cake and keep it in my shed.
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