Ok so im new to this so im nervous so bear with me. SO i got told i was bipolar when i was 14 and it was about even with the depression and mania. But then i hit 20 and now its pretty much all mania> My shrink thought it would be a good idea if i tried something like this and looked for people that felt like i do. So just wondering is anyone else felling like there addicted to there mania. I mean its an amazing feeling like nothing i have ever felt in my life. And ive been having episodes more often and my doc said its what happens because i don't take my meds like i should.But think of all the money people spend on drugs and this is a feeling that blows them out of the water and my brain does it on its own.It just sucks though because i love it and i hate it because now that im almost 24 i feel like im getting closer and closer to that edge and soon it will consume me completely. I mean its to the point now where i close my eyes and i can see that side of me and it looks like me but really scary and i wanna be him but then again im scared that if i become him im going to hurt everyone around me.So id like some feedback from anyone who is dealing with this or has in the past. I'm just getting more and more scared because i feel this thing just getting stronger and stronger and i don't really know if i should embrace it or fight it.
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