Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Sometimes this place makes me feel worse, or better. Its hard to describe. I read some posts and think to myself I'm blessed for not feeling that upset, but then my heart breaks for them. And then I spend the whole day worrying and praying for them. I used to be a very selfish person, this board is really changing me in that regards, I care so much for all my dear friends here.
I guess sometimes it makes me sad to read the sad posts and think about how that was me 4 years ago...and I never want to go back there again.
I guess it does help to talk and find out new things and relate to people, but like I said, I guess I am at a point where I have pretty much beath this BP, that I don't know how much longer I'll really stay.
My therapist says that the internet usually ends up getting people into more trouble then less help.
In my case she thinks I shouldnt have an open journal any more... because I have emotional boundry issues... ie I have none... so I share everything and need to learn not to. So now I am trying to make more then one entry and keep some of my thoughts to my self but its hard. Ever since that talk I have found I am posting less but then Ive been really tired so who knows...
then again she thinksits all not to good but I met my husband on a game on line so it cant be all bad
Sometimes, it's too much time and i definitely need to take breaks.
Overall, it's like a lifeline, though. I am so exhausted and depressed from the debacle of my last job that I can barely get out of the house these days. I'd be totally isolated without it and the friends i've made here.
Another time, I did nothing but watch movies, all the time!!!
I wonder what will be next!!!!!
Okay, so I do log in here almost, er...um...everyday for at least 2...well, too many hours a day (bowing head down in shame.) I think it WAS healthy at first & now it's turned into another compulsive thing I do ;) But there are some funny & interesting people here, some possibly even as weird as myself, so this is a great escape from the norm.