Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Do you ever think you're just acting or faking it for the benefit of others?
Just to try and get through your day?
Just to try and get through your day?
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I think we just do it more and are better at it because we have a lot more opportunity to "practice".
I'm on about summat else.
I'm on about trying to mask yr feelings all day because you don't want to expose them to others.In order to shield them from the negativity and helplessness.even shopping or stuff.From anyone.A lovers' tiff is a mere bagatelle.In comparison
With family, the pdoc and the tdoc though -- I've learned to open up and spill my guts. I finally trust them all enough to know that
1. they will not judge me
2. they are here to help me
3. they can't help if I don't share the whole story
4. they won't leave me.
Anyway, she asked me how I was as she'd heard some things good, some bad.
I froze.I had no time to assemble lies in my head.
I must've told her 20 years of history in five minutes.College, Uni, Jobs, Music, Manic depression.Her face !! Blah blah blah.
I then realised that I hadn't asked about her.IDIOT.
So I said, "er, how about you? Do you still work at the bank?"
She said with a slight pause "..yes!"
That was the conversation!!
Hahahahaha.I pissed myself and explained how funny it was.How deep I had gone right to the BP explanation!!
She laughed too and said I'm still a funny bastard..
So I relate to the reserved stretches..then...blah blah..
Yeah, Cracked actors
Harrrumph...Hmph!
Sorry was practicing my acting lessons.
I feel like I am always on stage when I go out (can't let them see the real me).
Then when I get home I'm a wreck from the pent up anxiety and stress even from something as simple as my daughter's graduation from JK yesterday!
What a way to live. I can't even relax in front of my family (not the wife and kids but my sibs and their families). Most of the Time I have no true Idea of who I really am. I'm just an empty shell.
except around my son...i have learned to put on the stable, happy mom for his wellbeing...and it is a good thing...some say that if you don't feel good, putting on a smile can change the way you feel.
i think that is true sometimes
but i'm a very bright person with a very high IQ now that i've come to terms with my BP and it's effects on past friends/lovers and familys i'm me and i always will be now i know what i have to do just to be a sane more stable me and not self medicate any more and when i just feel like i'm gonna pop like you said i turn in to a recluse and stay home some days a walk to the corner store is hard to do
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