I still don't know what to think of my new meds. I still feel confussed a lot and unfocused would be another good word. These are the moments I feel crazy. I am manic and numb at the same time. I just don't know if I like this feeling. I have a hard time thiking at work which is a really bad thing. I'd rather be swinging from the tree branches with my mood swings than feel like this. Please tell me this is not how "normal" people feel. I want to sort of crawl out of my skin and be myself. Like butterfly. i feel almost trapt in this state unable to get out and be the person I am struggling ot be and feel I can be on the inside. They said Abilify is an alomst over night diffrence type of medication. I have noticed athe diffrence but is it me just wanting to feel diffrent or is it real? I have paranoid deliusion so I feel like I am being parnoid and making myself feel this way. AHHHHH... i really feel like I am going crazy. I can't think full thoughts. I thought I had ADHD before. good lord that was nothing compared to now.
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