I spent the genesis of 2008 at the Shreveport VA hospital in the psyc ward. I am on new medication, which seems to be working but who knows what tomorrow or near future of today holds. I will continue seeing a psychologist and a psychiatrist to gain a better understanding and to manage my medication. After much a life of uncertainty, becoming overly obsessed with only one thing at a time, pushing everything else away, and then just as suddenly losing all interest in that one thing, I have accomplished little or nothing in my life. Somehow my family is still behind me even though I have pushed them away many times, disapearing altogether from the face of their world. My girlfriend is still with me even though I have put the fear of God into her very soul. I spent a week in the hospital under their medication-delivering supervision and was discharged yesterday. I plan on staying on my meds and so far everyday I have felt really well, with a new found confidence and stable emotional state. I truly feel like life is worth living, and hopefully that feeling isn't trickery anymore.
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